Epiphany

Over the past few weeks I have come to many realizations.
1. I love my boyfriend lots... okay I already knew this but I needed to re-state it.
2. I could survive on my own if only I had the money.
3. I'm a fucking grown-up. Yes, that was the most mature way I could say it... but seriously. I realized that, since I've been living on my own for the past two weeks (because I was dog sitting), I could live on my own, eat healthily and well, go to sleep and wake up in time that is necessary, and stay in a house without my parents without feeling alone and scared.
Not going to lie though... I wasn't alone every night, there were two dogs to protect me, all the doors were locked and checked before sleep, I did get scared when the doorbell rang twice and there was no one there either time.

I've also come to realize that I am 20 years old and finally starting to live life.
It took me that long to finally know how I need to live. I can make my own decisions and not care what other people think. I will never do something that will hurt someone else or that I am not comfortable doing but now I know that I can do whatever I want and I don't have to worry.
I have people I love and who love me back and I have a life and everything I need.

except money.

but that's okay. I have everything else.